What IS purpose? And do I have A purpose?
the reason for which something exists or is done, made, used, etc.
an intended or desired result; end; aim; goal.
the subject in hand; the point at issue.
practical result, effect, or advantage:
to act to good purpose.
verb (used with object), purposed, purposing.
to set as an aim, intention, or goal for oneself.
to intend; design.
to resolve (to do something):
He purposed to change his way of life radically.
verb (used without object), purposed, purposing.
to have a purpose.
So I believe life should have a purpose, that I have chosen this life before birth for a reason. That there is lessons I need to learn before I die so I can move on to a new life with new lessons. I believe my soul is a very old soul. Through regression therapy I have seen many life before this one.
But in this life I can’t find my purpose, my reason to be, or the lessons I’m supposed to learn.
Can a life be without purpose? Can it be that I’m not supposed to have a reason?
Or is my reason and purpose about embracing loneliness, loving myself, self acceptance, learning to function without acknowledgment from others.. Can these be my life purpose?
I don’t have any special gifts, I’m not talented in any sport or craft. I’m just a very normal human being. And a very introverted human being. I don’t mind being alone, so how can that be a lesson?
Even though I like to be alone and to live alone with my kids, I would love to share my life with another adult. I would love to feel loved by an adult again. I have felt it in the past, so I know I’m able to love and be loved.
But can something so easy like that be a life purpose? Shouldnt it be something more? Something greater?
So I should look into my passion to find my purpose. Well my kids are my passion, I strive to give them happiness, strength and a well function head on their body. I strive to make them good citizens one day. I want them to be happy in life, to be able to see that they can achieve everything they set their mind into! I want them to have a better foundation than I had. I want them to feel strength from the beginning. I want them to feel that they have family that support them no matter what. That they are not alone. That I will always help them and be there for them. No matter what.
So I’m really passionate about kids, other kids too, not just my own. I like to help out where there are kids in need. I love understanding kids with different needs than the “normal” kid. I love to work with kids. I love to solve problems. I love to plan and make schedules. I love organization everywhere but at home. So is this my purpose?
Again I have always thought it would be something big, something truly amazing! Like those saving lives in the hospital every day, that’s passion, that’s purpose.
Everyone can organize. Everyone can solve problems or play with kids.
So maybe I just need to redefine purpose. Maybe I just need to stop comparing myself to everyone. And look within. Maybe then I can start to figure out my purpose.
My path. My reason to be living this life.
Maybe then I will be living a life filled with purpose.
A life lived from the heart and soul ❤
Then I might feel free enough to just be me!