So everywhere I read how to heal I need to let go of the past. But how can I heal when the past is my issue? The troubled past, childhood, is what makes me hurt.
And I have tried to let it go. It worked for awhile. Then it all surfaced again, this fall. So I hadn’t healed. I had just let it go.
It enlightened me.
And they referred to other court cases. And they made me curious.
So I sent a letter and asked to get copies.
Today I got them.
And honestly, the past needs to be dealt with before you can heal. When it is dealt with, when you have the facts straighten out, T H E N it’s healing time. That’s what I have learned today.
Is that selfish? I guess some may think so. But what I read today makes it pretty obvious that some adults in my life was pretty selfish during my childhood. So if they get hurt by me now,I really don’t care. Their actions lead me down this road. And I need to heal to give a different future to my kids. A future with less pain and tears. More laughter and fun.
It’s all about the good and positive future I want for myself and my kids. So I’m asking for more documents today. It’s the only thing that will set my past straight. Documents from professionals with no feelings or selfish meanings or views on how thing was or was not.
It will set me free.