So time by myself was really good! I ended up enjoying some wine on Saturday night.. No, a lot!
I tried to find some courage to go out at the local pub to try to be social. It didn’t work 🙈 on my way there I stopped by a new friends house and I got more wine and talked A L O T ! So when I finally got to the local pub it was closed.. But at least I tried!
And Sunday was tough, I felt dead and started to stress, so my anxiety raised high! Luckily I didn’t have to get the kids until Monday morning.
So I spent the whole day in bed with Netflix 👍and got up early on Monday to pick up the kids. And of course spend the minutes acquired at my mums house to not seem rude…. Rough part! But I managed, this time my oldest had a harder time than me, and actually sent me a message while we was there and asked if we could leave 😳 so we did, and it was nice to get the kids back home.
Home is with them, and my time alone is not as important as it was some years ago. It is nice, but I tend to do more around the house with the kids here then without them! So it took until today to get the house decorated for Christmas, and tonight I have to sort out their advent calendar. But I find it hard since its some activities and some gifts, I’m just not sure about the activities. So scared they will not like them at all 😳
And I’m not done with my assignment.. I feel I will fail on this one. There is absolutely no motivation in me.. So I just have to write something and hope I get some feedback to make it better and THEN get a pass on it.. Not the best way to work, but feels like my only solution at the moment..
So I am around, I have read all your comments, and I will respond❤️I’m just still a bit in hiding after the stress and anxiety about going out in public this weekend.. Strange how something so small can tip me over for days, hopefully not weeks though! For now I’m going back to bed and watch a silly movie and hopefully empty my head 👍😘