Sunday song

Today my kids were going to their grandma for fall break.

And like always she makes me blow up like a bomb!

So here is my Sunday music therapy ๐Ÿ™‚

“Family Portrait”

Uh, uh, some deep shit, uh, uh

Momma please stop cryin, I can’t stand the sound
Your pain is painful and its tearin’ me down
I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed
I told dad you didn’t mean those nasty things you
said

You fight about money, bout me and my brother
And this I come home to, this is my shelter
It ain’t easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, you’ll see
I don’t want love to destroy me like it has done
my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t
leave

Daddy please stop yellin, I can’t stand the sound

Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around
My mama she loves you, no matter what she says
its true
I know that she hurts you, but remember I love
you, too

I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away
Don’t wanna go back to that place, but don’t have
no choice, no way
It ain’t easy growin up in World War III
Never knowin what love could be, well I’ve seen
I don’t want love to destroy me like it did my
family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t
leave

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy
Let’s play pretend, let’s act like it comes
naturally
I don’t wanna have to split the holidays
I don’t want two addresses
I don’t want a step-brother anyways
And I don’t want my mom to have to change her
last name

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let’s go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let’s play pretend, act like it goes naturally

In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let’s go back to that
(I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do
anything)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
Let’s play pretend act and like it comes so
naturally
(I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t
leave)
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let’s go back to that
(I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t
leave)

Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Daddy don’t leave
Don’t leave us here alone

Mom will be nicer
I’ll be so much better, I’ll tell my brother
Oh, I won’t spill the milk at dinner
I’ll be so much better, I’ll do everything right
I’ll be your little girl forever
I’ll go to sleep at night

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7 thoughts on “Sunday song

  1. If someone asked why can’t we be a family, change will only happen if every person puts energy to changing the family dynamics. Some could do everything to make someone happy and the person doesn’t change. In my life my mother hurt me with every contact. One day my Therapist ask why do I allow her to continue to hurt me. Then she said “Your mother doesn’t deserve you” A lightbulb went off and my life changed for the better. That may not be the answer for you.
    Maybe you need to soul search to see if your family deserves you.
    Have a great day without the kids, do something for yourself.
    I hope school is still a blessing.
    Hugs
    ๐Ÿ™‚
    M

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    1. Thank you! I know she don’t deserve me, and I’m done trying to change when she will never change. She only wants me to change for her. My anger is not lasting as long as it did in the past, so I know I’m moving further and further away from her.
      I’m already missing the kids, and because of my moms stupid words I wont be able to relax because they might need to be picked up asap!
      I still love school, but are a bit out of balance since I have been working a lot lately..
      Hugs ๐Ÿ™‚

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      1. Prepairing to teach again took tremendous commitment, you accomplished a goal so important to you.
        Don’t let someone else decide your mood. I sound silly saying that, I know how hard it is to rise above with your heart protected. If you have a cell phone you can make sure all kids have it. That gives you security the kids can reach you. You work very hard and deserve to treat yourself to something. It’s pretty boring, I love books, my favorite are old ones. I go to a Half Price store and look at books, I can spend 2 hours looking at books. I may not buy anything. It only cost the gas to go. When money is tight, that’s a big treat for me. Anything that makes your heart fill good.
        You have the determination to accomplish any goal. Pat youself on back for the big pay off for studing and now teaching.You’re worth it.
        ๐Ÿ™‚

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    2. thank you M โค Im sorry it took me so long to respond! Its true what you say about my mood, I really shouldnt let anyone dictate it, and Im getting better at controlling that. My oldest have a phone, and she had it with her. But she was to scared to tell me she wanted to come home, because she knew that if she did my mom would demand an explanation from her. And she didnt want to tell her that she wanted to go home because of her. it broke my heart, but at the same time my daughter needs to grow stronger and stand up for herself. Hopefully she now knows she can call me another time if she should need too.

      Books are always my threat! i can never get enough! But right now we are in a saving mode, so im just eye shopping online, creating huge wishlists for myself ๐Ÿ˜‰

      thank you for being so supportive, i truly appreciate it โค

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